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Aloha!
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Hellooooooooooo followers!
so after a long time I am facing a tentative return to the deviant scene. I avoided this place for a long time because I didn't like looking back on my old works. Some people enjoy looking back, either because they are still proud of their older works or because they enjoy seeing how far they've come. I tried that for awhile.. thought it might keep me around... but it didn't. I couldn't find the motivation to be inspired by them. I thought they were just so terrible that I shouldn't look at them and should move on, but the problem was always the motivation. As you all must know by now most of what I draw has a motivation - a story, an RP, a fan fiction.. not many of them had no background behind them.
So I stayed away for lack of motivation for years now. Turns out that lack of motivation was clinical depression that I've been battling for that many years and more now, something I finally came to terms with and agreed to be treated for. It only took half a decade, some fairly serious self harm, one or two minor attempts and one doctor who finally got through. Then I got through. Here I am now, on the other side. My shadow still trails back there and takes me back from time to time, but for now I'm moving forward and part of that movement is a decision to make significant improvement on my portfolio.
I'll be re-doing a number of works, mostly the hand drawn and coloured pieces. I'll be starting with the more popular ones, or the ones I like the most... I might even get some inspiration along the way to work on some ideas I've been hanging onto for awhile (write everything down folks!) and this is where you guys come in - if you want! If you're reading this and want to make a suggestion tell me what a few of your favorite pieces from my gallery are and I'll put them on my list, maybe even move it to the top!
Anywho, good to be back.. any replies may be delayed for awhile while I create a routine that allows time for working on these projects. It's been awhile since art was anywhere on my list of priorities so forgive me while I adjust to the reintroduction of it.
so after a long time I am facing a tentative return to the deviant scene. I avoided this place for a long time because I didn't like looking back on my old works. Some people enjoy looking back, either because they are still proud of their older works or because they enjoy seeing how far they've come. I tried that for awhile.. thought it might keep me around... but it didn't. I couldn't find the motivation to be inspired by them. I thought they were just so terrible that I shouldn't look at them and should move on, but the problem was always the motivation. As you all must know by now most of what I draw has a motivation - a story, an RP, a fan fiction.. not many of them had no background behind them.
So I stayed away for lack of motivation for years now. Turns out that lack of motivation was clinical depression that I've been battling for that many years and more now, something I finally came to terms with and agreed to be treated for. It only took half a decade, some fairly serious self harm, one or two minor attempts and one doctor who finally got through. Then I got through. Here I am now, on the other side. My shadow still trails back there and takes me back from time to time, but for now I'm moving forward and part of that movement is a decision to make significant improvement on my portfolio.
I'll be re-doing a number of works, mostly the hand drawn and coloured pieces. I'll be starting with the more popular ones, or the ones I like the most... I might even get some inspiration along the way to work on some ideas I've been hanging onto for awhile (write everything down folks!) and this is where you guys come in - if you want! If you're reading this and want to make a suggestion tell me what a few of your favorite pieces from my gallery are and I'll put them on my list, maybe even move it to the top!
Anywho, good to be back.. any replies may be delayed for awhile while I create a routine that allows time for working on these projects. It's been awhile since art was anywhere on my list of priorities so forgive me while I adjust to the reintroduction of it.
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secret journal
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++ gaia commish
+ the death of Isani Loren
+ tainted love
+chibi dragon age
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repeat, yes i know - whatever.
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Dragon Age 2:
Isabela
Seeker
Carver
Aveline
Charade
Fenris*
Narnia:
King Peter
King Edmund
Queen Susan
Queen Lucy
Jadis
ASLAN
WoW:
Faun
Velgaarda
Dragon Age O:
Morrigan
Dalish Warden
Mage Warden
Misc:
Avi's present
DeviantID (new)
Faelan Miller
Rayn Atore
Persephone Astaroth, "Echo"
Ereisselarra Asha'bellanar, "Lara"
Teanna Westwood
Isabela
Seeker
Carver
Aveline
Charade
Fenris*
Narnia:
King Peter
King Edmund
Queen Susan
Queen Lucy
Jadis
ASLAN
WoW:
Faun
Velgaarda
Dragon Age O:
Morrigan
Dalish Warden
Mage Warden
Misc:
Avi's present
DeviantID (new)
Faelan Miller
Rayn Atore
Persephone Astaroth, "Echo"
Ereisselarra Asha'bellanar, "Lara"
Teanna Westwood
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a self-reminder:
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Dragon Age 2:
Isabela
Seeker
Carver
Aveline
Charade
Fenris*
Narnia:
King Peter
King Edmund
Queen Susan
Queen Lucy
Jadis
ASLAN
WoW:
Faun
Velgaarda
Dragon Age O:
Morrigan
Dalish Warden
Mage Warden
Misc:
Avi's present
DeviantID (new)
Faelan Miller
Rayn Atore
Persephone Astaroth, "Echo"
Ereisselarra Asha'bellanar, "Lara"
Teanna Westwood
Isabela
Seeker
Carver
Aveline
Charade
Fenris*
Narnia:
King Peter
King Edmund
Queen Susan
Queen Lucy
Jadis
ASLAN
WoW:
Faun
Velgaarda
Dragon Age O:
Morrigan
Dalish Warden
Mage Warden
Misc:
Avi's present
DeviantID (new)
Faelan Miller
Rayn Atore
Persephone Astaroth, "Echo"
Ereisselarra Asha'bellanar, "Lara"
Teanna Westwood
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in case you were wondering
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Dear Deviantart,
RE: WONDERING?
Yes, I did, IN FACT, just spend four days on a single deviation so you could decide not to upload shit all tonight.
Thank. you. so. much.
RE: WONDERING?
Yes, I did, IN FACT, just spend four days on a single deviation so you could decide not to upload shit all tonight.
Thank. you. so. much.
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